Five star to the face

I messed up today, I snapped off to the team manager/chapalin saying "hi, nice to meet you. i play for this team to in case you forgot." and thats all i said.

his 13 year old sister went into surgery at 8:30 tonight nebraska time.

i apologized a little while after i said it. and when i found out about his sister when the team prayed after practice, i nearly died.

I had promised myself and God i would never allow this to happen again. that i would never be a part of another persons pain and difficulties. i got a wake up call today when i slipped.

please pray for heath's sister, heath, and his family as they go through this tough time.

im sorry heath.

it takes two to tango..... and a whole bunch to maccarena.

hey, i like hearing from other people.

im new at this, so im interested in what others have to say.

so if you have any questions/comments/thoughts/bible verses/ or ideas for blogs, please let me know.

thanks!

Shout out!

Morgan G is amazing. she is alive for God. I am blessed to know her and talk to her. if you ever get the chance to, read her blog.

In life i know few people that are as real as she is. i believe that she will do amazing things for God in her life.

and im trying to think of what to say, and i love writing. but for the first time, im at a loss for words.

shes that awesome.

Blood of our savior.

This is a pic i worked on about 3 weeks ago while i was waiting for preseason to start.

its not that great, but i didnt use any of the software i normally use.

They truly are special in Gods eyes.

I haven't written in a long time (about 3 weeks), and I realized tonight that I havent written because ive been “busy”. I have had class, soccer, homework, and making friends going on so much that I havent noticed how caught up in living my life ive become that I havent always been focused on God. That needs to change now and never change back.




I have been thinking for a long time (8 weeks..... more than 48 hours = a long time) about what I would do with a special education/secondary english major. And one thing that has stuck with me is the idea that I like special education because I love the kids ive worked with. They are great. I worked with this guy named danny for a whole semester. He was always happy to see me and always smiling. He loved racecars and watching races. He was also really good at basketball. He was a shining star that brightened my day. and my oldest brother jerimiah is disabled mentally, and he is a great guy who loves people. he is a great part of my life. and i had to realize this over time unfortunatly.

And for these 8 weeks ive had the dream to get my special ed degree and then a masters in the buisness of education. With the sole purpose of creating a system all over the world to teach others to accept our brothers and sisters.

I have met so many that say they feel uncomfortable around these “special” people. I understand that, but im sorry because these people deserve the same love we would show anyone else.

Its heart wrenching also to think that all over the world things like this (and much much worse) are happening to these innocents.

But ive been afraid. And by being afraid I have failed. I want to be selfless, but I would be concerned for my safety before the joy and peace of millions.

I am not afraid anymore, because I know God will walk with me every step. And he never is afraid.

I came to other realizations recently. I dont need to be comfortable. I need God. And if I were to sacrifice everything (even my life) for God. I could never be more filled with joy.



And to sacrifice everything so that just one more person would know God would Make life so Good I cant even think of an adjective to describe it. (and im an english nut, so words come easy to me).



Challenge yourself, because once you make that difficult commitment, you realize how easy it really is to serve our beautiful lord.



I would die for anyone. And be happy because I know God would never waste it.



I dedicate myself to God for all of eternity again tonight.

Can you feel the love tonight? (and every minute of every day?)

Way back in time, researchers did a study where they separated newborns from their mothers. They fed them, but avoided all contact with the children. They died. They died of loneliness.




Telling the babies that they are loved would have not been enough, they would not have understood. They NEEDED to feel the love in order to live.



I believe we are the same when it comes to God, hearing is nice, but we wont understand. We need to feel the love in order to understand what is going on in our lives (but not necessarily why, that's up to God to understand). We need to feel the love of God.



If we don't feel the love, we fill our hearts with band-aid solutions like money, work, friends, clothes, and worst of all, sin.



Gods love is powerful, if you feel the love, you wont need these things



(everything except for sin you will probably need in order to live, its a common sense thing. But you wont need to worry about them, because God takes care of us.)



So how do we feel the love?



We are Gods creation, We are everywhere, we have a wonderful gift from God called the Bible, if you haven't figured it out yet, Its us! (I'm excited! are you excited?)



We are here to work for God. We are examples of his love. When we show each other love and act for him in his name, others see this. A selfless man/woman sacrificing themselves for others will turn more heads than anything ever could. It will get peoples attention, and they will see the love and joy!



And others show us love in the same way.



That's as real as it gets.



Be selfless.



Strive everyday, in every way, to serve God. And spread the love. Be selfless.



A book of the bible that I read recently, Colossians, Has a verse that explains a lot for me. It was written by Paul to the church in Colossians.



“I want you to know how much I am struggling for you and for those at Laodicea, and for all who have not met me personally. My purpose is that the may be encouraged in heart and united in love, so that they may have the full riches of complete understanding, in order that they may know the mystery of God, namely Christ, in whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge.”

Colossians 2:1-3



Help others to feel and understand, and thank God for giving you the ability to do his Glorious work.

Love is more than a funny feeling.

This is a topic i want to talk about even further than i have now, because i believe it is one of the most important things in life.

Love is so much more than that feeling you get when you hang out with that one specific person who you really relate to, and who laughs at your jokes, and who is really attrative (dont deny it, u know its true).

in marriage, i think it as a pair who sacrifice personal wants and desires for the stregnthening of the unity. (that sounded like a textbook answer, but thats what i believe for now, and i have put alot of thought into what it means these past few months. but that is a whole other blog post).

anyway, What is love?

It is what we should feel for every other human being.

love is the unconditional feeling that we should feel towards others where we would be selfless and help them in their journey.

human rights are a joke in my opnion. They are a band-aid solution to the selfish desires of people. no human is superior to another.

but when people do act unjustly towards us? we should be allowed to defend our honor and ways of life?

Love the sinner, not the sin. it doesnt get much simpler than that.

easy to say, but not to do, right? It all depends. I personally believe that with faith, nothing is considered difficult, because of faith that God is there every step of the way.

simply put, love(for me)  is sharing the joy we experiance when we serve god.