Death.
It's not something most people my age think about on a regular basis.
Its also really hard to think about in all honesty.
It's one of the most feared things next to spiders and public speaking.
I joined the national guard this year. As a truck driver. And in thinking the decision over I thought "well what about roadside bombs and stuff?"
If I am deployed, I could die. (not saying I will, it's just a smaller possibilty.)
And I am ok with it.
My faith isn't perfect. I am still growing in my faith. But I am of the opinion that It is better that it is me, than a Person who has no faith.
Do I want to die? No honestly. I know whats waiting for me, but I'm not going to go out of my way to seek opportunities to die.
In a different thought. I had an interesting conversation today with a buddy. We were talking about the dorms here. I said I was so glad to be out of mcloud because people there were crazy and didn't respect the building at all. And we mentioned a few of the troublemakers. One of them was mentioned as having broken the tv in there. Seth mentioned that He was kicked out. And in that I was sad. The troublemakers here piss me off. But this guy is leaving a good Christian environment to go back to a place filled with bad things. So no matter how much people don't like him. He needed to be here. Even if him being here upset people. He needed to be in a safe place to learn about God.
So What do these things have in common?
God has a Plan. He wants to be able to use you. He's not here to cater to your every whim.
So the potential of my death, and those kids being in the place where they need to be, are things that I need to accept fully.
So be open to what God has in store for you, and what God is doing around you.
I struggle with this too, but life is bigger than just you or I.
